SS, I had read your thread yesterday... and tonight when I listened to joel osteen on tv, the message was signs from above. So many have spoken of signs from their loved ones on this thread, I just thought I would mention it in case anyone wants to catch the show this weekend. It repeats tomorrow and may even be on his website.
Praying you find peace in knowing how much your son loved you even though he struggled, and one day in the afterlife you'll see him again. (((HUGS)))