I am so sorry for your loss. As you know I lost my boyfriend last month to this disease, and have given idea of life after death sleepless nights... I have no idea, from a spiritual side, I don't know anymore. I have my faith, and I never lost it though this... From a scientific side, energy does not die, it only transforms from one entity to another... Our cells in our body regenerate all the time and the shells we walk in are not the same shells from years ago, and yet we are the same. Sure we have grown and changed a little, but the core of our soul has not changed, and yet physically we are not the same... As far as death, I am too numb to feel anything, and a friend had told me I will not feel anything right now because I am grieving. I have only had two dreams with my love, and I am getting upset I have not dreamed of him more...