hello brooklyn girl-
we have a saying here: one day at a time. one hour at a time, if necessary.
i found when i left my xABF to flee to my mother's, a lot of different emotions surfaced. for myself, it was best to permit some time to pass and simply sit with those feelings.
one day at a time. there is no need to project into the future. take the time you require to see thru the chaos. it really has nothing to do with him at this stage and everything to do with you and your very valid needs.
if his calling you is disturbing your processing, you can always block his number.
take the time you need for yourself.
naive