Oh Brooklyn Girl, I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. When I left my EXABF, I lived at a friend's house, with my stuff in garbage bags for two weeks. Cried, and cried, felt so sad and so sick to my stomach over all of it. Could not sleep at all either, and it's so hard to think straight on no sleep.
All I can say is that things will get better, don't try to figure out the future, just one day at a time. You will feel better, and then you can deal better. Try to do some nice things for yourself. Easy does it.
