Welcome to the SR family!
We are glad you found us. We are here to support you.
I know you are concerned about the future of your marriage. Let me pass on the wisdom that was shared with me by an Alanon Member:
"You don't have to have all the answers by 6 p.m. today, do you?"
No? Me either.
You didn't arrive at this point overnight. It will take as long as it takes to find the answers you are looking for.
Another source of great wisdom and insight is the permanent (sticky) posts at the top of this forum. You will find some of our stories there as well.
I think it is awesome that you have a therapist! You are taking steps to take care of yourself. Good on you!