Glad to see your are finally taking some 'action' to help you.
I have to say, for me, all the reading of these great books, didn't do a damn thing for me, UNTIL I was ready to take ACTION.
However, what helped me the most to take some ACTIONS to work on me was the 12 steps of both AA and Al-Anon. By working those steps I got to ME. The real ME. Then when I had worked them, twice all the way through, first in AA and then in Al-Anon I had to learn how to LIVE those 12 steps in my daily life.
It doesn't magically happen overnight, but it does happen every day. Several months down the road, and reading back on my journals and I could SEE in black and white my 'attitude' changing, my 'way of thinking' changing, and my 'actions' toward others changing.
I am glad that you are moving forward!
Love and hugs,
When I started 'living' those steps is when my life started to change for me, that was when I started to change, INSIDE.