I hear you Fallen Man! I work every second month and on my months off it was back to back benders. They would last 2,3 or 4 days (vodka) and then I would be so sick I would have to stop for about 12 hours. I would then have perhaps a bottle of wine to keep the "fears" away and try and sleep. When I woke up I would feel "well" enough to start the next binge. The biggest battle was getting the next supply in as amongst other things I could not negotiate stairs (going down) and needed to get down stairs to leave my apartment block. Anyway that complete nightmare is finished and am on day 54 (thanks to SR) and really looking forward to my next break and all the amazing things one is able to do when sober!
