Hello Carmen.
I talked about this with a therapist. I live with a guy but, my home is not a safe place to recharge, but a place of tensions and stress. I, just like you, deserve a place where I feel peace and relaxation, life out there is tough. Constant stress affects our emotional and physical health.
Have you gone to a therapist? Usually I do things by myself, and I make many mistakes, I repeat the same hurting thought over and over and over, and suffer a great deal.
I am learning to ask for help and it is priceless, to be able to talk to someone who gets it and is prepared to give you advice, scold you, leave you homework, relax you, give you exercises to "shake" what you are carrying.. today I arrived crying, and left laughing... if you can share with a therapist, she or he will make you feel much better, safer, stronger, healthier while you start putting boundaries and improving your life style.
The rewards are priceless.
Hugs
Tc999