mama, why are you always so mean to daddy
That is such a hard thing for me too. I know towards the end of XAH being here when he was using, I was full of venom. It was so hard for me to contain around the kids.
I hate vivid dreams like that HK. I have them too. I hate when I wake up and it takes forever for me to shake it off. I know they're not real, but I still feel the after effects for a while after.