(((Katie)))
Intellectually, you know he is better off where he is. But I too have had the emotional side of me want to hide under the sheets and just block it all out.
I find a good hard sobbing cry is sometimes in order.
None of this is what we had planned for our children. But I tell myself often that my AS may just be meant to take a crooked path to where he is supposed to be.
Don't be afraid to reach out for help yourself. Talk to your docctor if these feelings persist. I learned a good while ago that there is sometimes a short distance between where I am at and the big black hole.
(((Hugs)))