If you do want to start hoping, think of it in these terms: you're on an extended vacation. You work on Lotus. He works on himself. That way there's no way you can lose, because you'll keep getting stronger and stronger. All these rules, the dreams of the holidays, the how long you have to be sober before stuff, that's all in the future. Before you know it, the future has arrived and if you've been doing your best to prepare for it, life is beautiful. Not because of who you're with, but because of who you are.