Still at Step One, y'all. The HP idea is planted, but not growing much. But it's planted. For real.
I'm back to raising the bottom, finding my motivation to take all steps to beat this. I think I'm going to do some SMART worksheets on the negative effects of my drinking. I still haven't done that. I really don't want to do that.
It's like throwing salt into a wound. But more than once, as one makes a list. The list won't be that long, but it's hard to be honest with myself about how I've allowed drinking to cut me off from things I want in life.
I've been really good at convincing myself that I don't really want things. Not fame or fortune, or silly things like that, but basic things, like friends, relationships, and peace of mind.
So, I've got to do that SMART worksheet.
Thank you all for your replies, I read them with great interest.