Hi, puppygirl. I'm sorry you're feeling such pain and helplessness. Reading and educating myself on this horrible disease and the ways family can respond to it was my front line of defense and still is. Ditto the posts that Codependent No More is a great place to start, as is the book Under the Influence. AlAnon is another wonderful resource. The stickies at the top of the forum are great too.
This disease is so strong, so devastating to everyone involved. You can not make your husband work a recovery program, but you can arm yourself with knowledge and support and take care of yourself. You're not lost, not completely. You've found SR, you're starting to reach out for help and support, you're finding tools that will help you. I hope you know you're not alone in this.
