Old 07-28-2010, 11:38 AM
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Originally Posted by LaFemme View Post
...anyone who knows me will definitely concur that my brain is wired "differently" something I've mostly liked about myself...I can visit the "box" but I definitely can't live in it...which actually, come to think of it, might be one of the reasons I liked drinking in the early days...I felt so different from everyone, and drinking helped me fit in, especially when I was vulnerable and just starting college after being something of a misfit in HS:-( Then ultimately when it got out of hand it stopped helping me fit in. Point being, I have no desire to fit in anymore, in recovery and in life, just going to be myself.
LaFemme, I think a lot of us can relate to feeling "different". I am not an "artist", but I am a bit idiosyncratic. I grew up thinking something was very, very wrong with me. My first swallow of alcohol fixed that...for a little while. Of course, it later turned on me as I continued to seek that elusive feeling I had in the beginning. Today I have learned to embrace my uniqueness. It is so much more interesting. Many people have told me that they wish they had the courage I have--to be true to myself, to dare shun society's expectations. My sole regret is that I didn't learn to do it sooner...you know, if I had known then what I know now!
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