I certainly don't think anyone's going to judge you, dear.
I am not religious either. I was raised in a strict Catholic home, and when I came into recovery, I struggled with the whole 'God' concept. The only concept I had ever known was the God of my parents' understanding and the Catholic church's understanding.
My dad and I have gone several rounds because I haven't attended church in over 20 years.
My concept of God today has zero to do with any organized religion today, or anyone else's concept of God.
I have a higher power in my life, and I do choose to call that higher power God.
Most of us have a long history of taking care of others before ourselves.
I know I came to a point many times where that no longer served its purpose and I was in a great deal of pain.
I'm not quite sure what they meant in the meeting that the alcoholic doesn't have a breaking point because I beg to differ. I certainly had a breaking point in my alcoholism/addictions, and in my codependency.
There are good meetings and not-so-good meetings out there, hon.
Perhaps you need to look at other meetings?
