Kitty, hon, I TOTALLY get you and what you are saying and do not judge you at all. I also did not have a Higher Power, all my life. I also had the ideas and attitudes about God you have. My entire life, if I encountered anyone who so much as quoted a bible scripture, or even said the word "blessed", I would RUN LIKE HELL!!! But a couple years ago a very old friend of mine and I sort of held eachothers hand through some things and during that time, did a Bible study together. Now, I have a Higher Power, God. And it has changed me and my life. For the simple fact that I was able to just Let Go of all the prejudices, attitudes, fears, control, whatever it was, and mostly (in my mind) for MY FRIEND'S sake (not mine). It was like ACCIDENTALLY believing in God and finding, HEY this is not so bad and actually, quite good. Like they say in the Program, Let Go and Let God
