Bamboozle said:
'what's the point? that wouldn't be enough!'
I totally do that too!
I had "problems" before alcohol as well. And I have used alcohol to "deal" with them. But for me, I see them as two almost unrelated issues. My problems were there looong before I knew I had an alcohol problem. And I drink (drank) because I love everything about alcohol - except for all the bad parts - and don't need a reason.