Thanks for some of that guys.
I don't however appreciate being as some would say called out. I thought this was a support group? I never said I was REWARDING myself, nor did I say I was proud of drinking. I'm here for a reason, like all of you..because I know drinking is a problem and I am trying to do something about it.
I didn't realize how badly my words could be twisted when writing posts. I did not intend to make it sound as though drinking was a good thing - not at all. I expected a lot less judgement. Friends don't judge right? Well apparently that rule does not apply on this "Support Group Site".. yeah, support.
Best wishes and best of luck to you all.