Hi Dinamic
I used to think I learnt something about myself after a relapse too.
I dunno, maybe I really did - but whatever insight I gained didn't stop me from drinking again, which is the real lesson I had to learn.
For me, until I made the break and broke the cycle completely, I was doomed to endlessly repeat it.
I'm glad you're back with us tho - I hope nothing I've said tempers that excitement
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