Hi JSD
I was sick of being that guy too. I didn't want to die like 'that'
The way I started was taking it a day at a time. Make a commitment not to drink just for today....repeat as necessary the next day.
If you find you have trouble doing that, and most of us do, you'll find a lot of help and support here.
Anna and Ainslie make some good points
Here are some links to some of the main recovery programmes too
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
D