Thank you all. I am attending AA today with a friend who will drive over and bring me. It will be the beginning again. My body aches from the beating I took, my mind aches with the realization of disgust at this being my own finale, and my soul hurts just cause. Yes the big picture is/was no one was hurt but boy this is gonna cost. That allways gets my attention. Thank you all; will get thru this with your support.