This is the bottom for me...
I don't want to go into detail on the web but I experienced the boot of the law yesterday due to drinking. I was attending meetings and trying to get a sponsor but only had part time people offer anyway I got off the track and returned to drinking. Of course I had to have a major drama occur and now I will return to AA and you guys with hat in hand asking for help. I am so depressed. I know I walk in the trail of many before but still I am scared because I don't know how hard my punishment will be. Scared that I've ruined my standing in front of my children and just scared like a baby. Alcohol is bad news people. It ruins our lives. This is really the lowest depth of misery all self inflicted. Yikes.