Old 07-22-2010, 11:25 AM
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NEOMARXIST
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Hi Eddie. 'One day at a time'. I still remember my last binge vividly, or rather the total and utterly empty feeling inside of me. I lay in my mates chair for about 24 hours without really moving. He said he was going to take a picture of me and give it to the schools as an anti drink and drugs advert. Man I was beaten by the booze. I was just sick and tired of feeling so hopeless when coming down. I just wanted oblivion but it was so destructive.

But I knew that i had to get working hard on recovery and committing 100% to stay away from that first drink 'just for today'. otherwise i would be stuck in the same depressing cycle untill I probably killed myself drunk.

peace
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