Eddie,
I would always promise to stop drinking after an especially bad night of drinking and bad behavior. I just got sick and tired of being sick and tired. Sounds like that's where your it. It does eventually sink in. Like everyone says you have to come that decision on your own. So true.
I'm working on my second month. I'll pray you find the strength to move forward and reclaim your life. Good for you in tossing the beer. One day,one hour at a time. There's a lot of support here. Can't tell you how much everyone helped me. Especially the first week.