I'm hanging in there today...took my boys on a playdate and tried not to think about it all! You know, I do feel insane most days. Seems like this vicious cycle just keeps repeating itself over & over & over. Same fight, different day..never any positive results....He always turns it around on me and says I am the crazy one & I have it so good-don't have to work, he buys me nice things, takes me and the kids on vacations....but what he doesn't realize is all those things are destroyed by his drinking!! Why, oh why can he not realize it???????...........Sometimes I worry that I don't have a rock-bottom-that maybe I will put up with this forever....crazy I know...