I'm new here but not to the problem.
They teach in AA - one day at a time.
It works for us too - one decision at a time.
Make it a simple achievable one - thinking about divorce now maybe too big to tackle.
What can you do today to make your situation better and more peaceful for you and your children?
We are not control by addiction but by the overwhelming need to love unconditionally. Mother nature is cruel, she is hard to fight.
Keep posting and stay strong
ChrrisT