For me it means that booze calls the shots in my life....
Originally Posted by
spryte 
Occasionally, there are some dramatic incidents, but I've learned enough to avoid them by not leaving home and drinking. When I go out and drink, bad things happen. So, I don't go out. So, I've got that reasonably under control
I love this post, thanks. I stayed in inside the house for the very same reason and thought I was reasonably "safe". After a few months I would wake up with bruises, cuts and burns and not know how they got there. I passed out several times with the oven on.
"Existing", thanks for that too, that was what I did, exist. IMHO I was a oxygen thief in that state. No good to myself, loved ones or family.
Alot of honesty in your post and it helped me alot.