Hi Sohurt, My heart breaks for you. Its a horrible way to loose a child and the greiving process has to be the hardest. Its early on so you go right ahead and hurt, miss him and get all those tears out. But realize one thing~~there was probably nothing you could have done to change a thing. There have been many posts lately from moms that have lost a loved one so stick around and you will get alot of support....Hugs to you, Bonnie