i know this is all right and good and all that, but damnit I'm sad! He was such a great guy. he was sweet, thoughtful, the man bought me flowers I can't even remember how many times over the past weeks. He was truly romancing me. Dang it! he took my car in and had the wheels balanced while i was sleeping prior to me having to take it on a business trip. he packed me a flipping snack box for the road with the types of vegetarian foods I eat. he wrote me cards. he told me i was beautiful and sexy. he held my hand and looked me in the eyes. last night i wasn't emotional. i was clinical. I'm a nurse, i know how to do that. its like it was a professional thing. this morning I'm like a dish rag. my eyes keep tearing up. I haven't even told him yet. I still know it's the right thing to do and I will. just god dang it! i already miss him. whoever i thought he was.