I just keep having the sinking feeling I could have done more. I'm also feeling I LACK something.
This is the worst. Guilt is like black mold in my soul. The best thing I ever did for myself was practice saying the following, to myself, out loud
I forgive you for not knowing then what you know now.
But I need reminding when engulfed in self criticism. I recently had a melt down here at SR about my behavior. I was afraid I can't change.
But I can. And so can you. Just keep coming here and posting and being honest with yourself. And we love you too.