Hi Fidget...
welcome to Sober Recovery...
You will have to excuse my ingnorance on the subject, but what is X?
There is alot of knowledge here in the forums.
Experience, Strength and Hope are woven in to the threads.

I do hope that you will take a serious look at where the progressive disease of addiction can lead you, it can be found here on forums and/or maybe going to a meeting would help. A support group like AA/NA should be the easiest to find and most likely the most helpful. It really does help to be around others going through the same kinds of struggles.

I find the purple lips very intriguing to the eye and brain...
Comforting to the quiet side.

Oh my name is Kel and I am an addict to alcohol. I am sober today and was yesterday as well. I am not thinking about tommorow, just the now.
It is not perfect but it is better and the chaos has become more like life's daily trials and tribulations and sober I can deal with them.