Guess what - early sobriety sucks! (hehe, but it's true).
The first few days/weeks, I didn't know up from down, but I kept putting one foot in front of the other. That was the best I could do. Get up, go to work, go to a meeting or go to outpatient therapy. I did this for 4 months.
After 4 or 5 months, I was feeling better, yes, but being sober was still very, very awkward and sometimes downright painful. I'm now 6 months removed from my last drink and I'm still showing major PAWS symptoms.
...but now I know that it's a one-day-at-a-time process sometimes. I'm glad you made it through that day.
Feelings...aren't always facts. Boy, once I learned that, my entire world changed and my God got a lot bigger.
Congrats on making it through and also VIVA SR!