Hi Artist,
I'm glad for you found this place. It's been a lifesaver for me, and many others I'm sure.
I also suggest you stick around and read as much as you can. This could be a place where your beautiful journey begins. You just need to stay open and ready to work on yourself and question yourself. Change your focus from him to you. It's a process, hard one too, but for sure it beats staying where you are right now. You'll make you decisions when the time is right for you. Give yourself the time you need, you're already going in a right direction. There will be few steps back, I'm sure, but take them as the learning experience and keep moving forward.
We're here for you.
I wish you well, and wellcome.
HUGS