Hello artist.
I love your nickname. I am an artist too and drawing/painting has helped me express my feelings when I lost an ex boyfriend who I believe is an alcoholic. In my case I chose to leave.
This is a great place to learn about Alcoholism. Have you read the Sticky section? lots of great articles over there.
Also if you could get Melody Beatty book "codependent no more" that is a Bible for us that have lost too much of ourselves due to someone else's problems.
You are not alone in your feelings and we all get how it feels when "society" ignores the problem or worse think its fun and YOU are the one blowing it all out of proportion or making a problem where there isn't one, etc etc. I remember how DAMN LONELY it was for me.
Make yourself at home, there is much Experience, Strength and Hope to share. Welcome to SR