I don't think you were being straight-up irrational, but at the moment it was going on, I don't think you were able to think about what was going on from more angles than the ones you saw working against you. That's totally fine, especially since you've proven you can see more sides in retrospect.
I really wanted to just quick post to congratulate you o 2 weeks
that's great!!!!
All the best, and stick with it as best you can!
Blessed be,
WW