Almay 777,
It's that demon trying to lure you back! Trying to make you forget all those embarrasing, humilating times you remember when you awake in the morning. That is if you can even remember.
Think of how hard hard you struggled this week. Think of how proud of yourself you should be. Think of how awful it'll be going through that again! Cause most certainly you'll be there again sooner or later.
I feel for you and your depression, but this will pass and you NEVER have to suffer like this again if you just hold on to your resolve. Do anything you have to not to let the demon win!
My thoughts and prayers are with you! HANG ON!!