My story did not have a happy ending for our marriage but I am making my own happy ending for myself. I cannot control him. The best thing you can do for yourself is to educate yourself on the disease. By finding this forum no doubt you have already seen some of the insanity that so many of us have been through. Most likely you have only seen the beginning. Stay around and read and you'll learn a lot. And if you've never been to an AlAnon meeting then that would also be my suggestion.