Chopper-
That's why the BB calls alcoholism: cunning, baffling and powerful
Make sure you're always "working" on your sobriety otherwise thoughts like the second one........where it suddenly makes sense to drink again......can creep in without you having any defense. (or at least not enough defense at the right time). That's one of the reasons regular AA meetings and working with others is so beneficial......it keeps your defenses strong for those times in the future that the thought of a drink can creep in on you