Thanks. I have made it through the day without contact. He never tried again after the three texts and two phone calls. I do love him. I hate to see him so messed up. But, I know, as hard as it is, I cannot live a life with someone that is this out of control. I guess all the other alcoholics I had in my life were functional. So, this is just so strange and overwhelming to me. I mean, I have never seen him drunk, so to me, I can't even picture it. Thanks everyone for the support. I have have been doing a lot of crying and praying. It comes in waves, I feel peace at one minute and then I just break down. Just need to get through the rest of today. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.