Everyone here has "MESSED UP" at one time or another. No reason to give up HOPE or roll over and let the alcohol WIN. Pick yourself up and start again. Take it an hour at a time if necessary. Thats what I did the first day. Stayed on SR and read until I couldn't see anymore. But the hours past and I made it through.
I've done this TWICE failed the first time after one week. Now on day 28 and still hanging in there. I refuse to let alcohol win! YOU can beat this addiction.
Try again we're all rooting for you!! GOD BLESS