Back to square 1
So I drank on Sunday, 'in moderation'. then on Monday and yesterday... back to the future I do not want to have. I really like the June group, so this is my last chance to belong to this one.
It is so incredibly stupid. I do not suffer (yet) from any withdrawal symptoms. I feel better straight away when I do not drink. I sleep better, my whole me feels better. And still, put kids in bed, sit with husband and other friends for the past 3 days and convince myself I do not have a big issue and I can drink one. But it is never one and I always stop wanting more, but conscious nobody else is drinking as much and as fast as I do. Well, you kow the feeling. I feel terrible today but want to be on your boat... So here I am. Firmly determined to not drink today and stop thinking about tomorrow, next week/month/year.
Happy to see many of you are doing a fantastic job!