Thank you. I can't stop crying. I have been through worse,(divorce with 4 kids, and then an abusive relationship) but right now after all the hope I had and trust I put into him, I am so sad. Just really, really sad, and alone. He has been my best friend. I feel like it was all just a big fat joke. I trusted him to love me. I trusted him to stay sober, I trusted him. Right now, I am trying hard to accept this, and trust God. It is without a doubt, a struggle.