Thanks, I guess I just have to get myself through the stages of grief right now. I just regret ever finding him on FB right now. I cannot even begin to explain how it seemed to be such a blessing. I had been praying for a long time for a guy to come along. I described him in my mind and Tim was it. I prayed for whomever God would send me would be healthy, and sober. (I have had my share of relationships with drinkers, but no one this bad.) So, when Tim and I found each other after all these years, and he said he was sober and going to AA. I was thrilled. I thanked God over and over. So, this is just so difficult to wrap my mind around. I feel like the joke is on me, ya know?