Wow...Not exactly what I expected to hear...But Chino....It makes perfect sense...I allowed this to happen....Again...I allowed this to happen....I've said it out loud about 50 times....Thank you....I honestly hadn't realized...Guess I was too busy blaming him....
And sesh....You wrote a bookful of stuff in those two little paragraphs...I didn't think I was still expecting anything of him, but maybe I am...And you are right...There is nothing he could say or do that would fix this....Absolutely nothing....Forgiveness??? Hopefully I will get there....You have given me much to think about.....So..I'm going to go figure this out...It's me...not him.