Lisa, when you get a chance, you might want to hop over here and read:
Adult Children of Addicted/Alcoholic Parents - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
There you will see the devastating effects on adults who grew up in an alcoholic home.
We're not trying to pick on you, honestly.
There's a lot of collective experience on this board of people
who have been where you are.
We're very concerned about you and that baby.