Mek....I am sorry to see that you are still drinking and I wish you well. Only you can make the choice to stop and get into recovery. At your young age....well your drinking will continue on a long, progressive, and destructive path if you do not find the strength. It is there and I know you can do this but only when you stop can you begin to heal and live the life you want.
Stay strong my friend and I hope you find peace. From reading all of the responses...including mine back in April....well yeah.....we do care about you.
Huggs.