Hi Theresa,
You've found the perfect place. Welcome to Soberrecovery. Believe it or not, your feelings don't sound different than mine or anyone else's around here. I like drugs better than everything and everyone in my life. In the end I lost everything and everyone because of my addiction. I understand the way you feel and there are tons of us around here that do also. Take a look around the boards and post where you feel comfortable. Try to alcoholism forum or the AA forum.
It's very hard to stop on your own but there are people who want to help and offer support. Where glad you're here.