Romancing the experience of pouring yourself a glass of NA wine and savoring the bouquet and flavor with every sip as if it was the real thing is creating a H-U-G-E reservation for relapse. Then deciding to listen to that little voice in your head say, "Hey, maybe I don't have a problem at all. Maybe I never did." just screams of your disease trying to get out and take back control of your life. Only you know what's right and if you end up going out because of bad choices at least know the program will still be here for you when you get back.