Thanks Ann, I will try to go to a meeting tonight. I just found out that I have a meeting on Thurs at lunch so I can't go to my regular meeting. Yuch!
I broke down earlier and called him at home. I know this is the same old behavior for me. I am trying to make the changes but maybe I just need more time. I am not sure what I am waiting for, but am trying to trust God.
He said that he really wanted to make changes this time, quack, quack, quack. The problem is a part of me still believes him even now. My mind or Spock knows that he is just manipulating me, but my heart cries out to him.
But I just have to get through this day, this hour, this minute.