Yes, I do go to church, but need more direct help.
Have you talked to your pastor? Lots of churches have FREE resources. Of course first you have to ask for help.
I guess I need to really concentrate on going to alanon.
Yes you do. Have you tried it yet?
People have given you so many suggestions. But you are the one who has to do the work necessary to feel better. That's the hard part. At some point we have to take ownership of our problems and actually do something about them. It's hard though. I understand.
Sometimes it's much easier just to do nothing and then wonder why nothing gets better. Its about
actions not
words. Sometimes I think I am addicted to being miserable. It's just easier that way. It gives me something to complain about. It doesn't take a lot of effort to be miserable. But it takes a lot of effort to improve my situation.